I've been writing poetry again, lately. My brain has been thinking in poetry again too. My brain has been doing things I don't understand. I don't understand but I also do. I think back in time, and I barely know me.
I'm proud of myself. I wished and tried so hard to be something that makes sense, but now I guess I can let myself be called crazy. I think I can be a good kind of crazy. I think I can be loved as much as I love you too. I love you all so much too, I know you see it. I love that love and I want to be it. More more more more more~

گر چه من خود ز عدم دلخوش و خندان زادم عشق آموخت مرا شکل دگر خندیدن
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I was already born with a good sense of humor
But love has taught me to laugh in a different way
Now, like dawn eager to embrace darkness, I laugh
Like a shell about to reveal its pearl, if you break me,
I laugh

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30th birthday Ratatoullie, btw:

It all feels like so much at once. I hope I can convey it someday. I hope you can see and feel hopeful too. It hurts so much and I wish it didn't have to. It's worth it and I haven't even made it through.



-Merky ♥