AAAaaa it's been so long :O like omg it's a new year lol
Hiii~ I was having electrical issues at my place and my head XD
It's better ish now, tho. Better enough for now ♥

I'm really trying to make this place my main source of internet presence at this point. I stole my old pictures from Facebook and that's almost permanently gone. I'm having a hard time leaving Instagram... I don't care if I seem like I'm dramatic, it feels worse to justify the BS. T__T I know I'll figure it out.
In the meantime... I have a lot of ideas of how I want to revamp this place and add more fun pages, so I'm looking forward to working on it! AKA It'll be good to have computer stuff available to focus on instead of other things O__O

Some cool Merky related things:

So much has happened lolol I've been focusing a lot more on music and I'm glad! It's crazy to realize the momentum really matters ^^;;
Hopefully I'll have updated my music page as well, but here's my latest original song that I've recorded~


That's also some art I made so I better update that too XD

I'm trying my best to let myself go one step at a time, but I think my brain often gets so far ahead of me that the rest of me has to ask it to slow down lol

I'm grateful to all the patient people in my life. It's been so interesting gathering up my old pictures. My plans for the Scrapbook are too have some of my old pictures in there too somehow. Growing up, I was like those anime bitches that everyone is scared of but they are actually cool and sweet af u^u lolol

these are from around 2012 maybe? And I probably was also scary but still ...Crazy when you realize like... damn, it wasn't that I'm inherently bad and flawed as a person, it really was just because I was in a small churchy town and I was different :O Being a human is absolutely insane. I am glad to be here now, but sometimes I still feel like I'm gonna enjoy death. Maybe I need to find the ability to be more chill about being alive while I'm still living, but it just feels like this shit just keeps happening and happening and never fuckin stops lmaoo XD Weeeeeeeeeeeee!~


OMG I ALMOST FORGOT TO MENTION MY LICENSE??? Took me over a decade of BS to get this thing O_O
I am Spongebob coded U_U..
I'm on the way to getting my own vehicle and everything, so yayyy~ Watch out for when I become mobile!! >:3c


I'm also working on some art for a clown themed art exhibit that a friend told me about~ <|:oD
This was some sort of painting/fabric print that I had saved from my grandma's trash lol and now look how cute they are becoming OwO
Besides rehearsing for an upcoming Gal-entines event that I'm playing music for, I've been doing my best to be in cozy painting mode during all the cold weather! (Looks like this:)

Media and such:

I discovered this ancient relic of a "motion manga" while looking up more info about it. I remember really liking the manga as a teen, but I think I mostly liked the art. I like the characters, but I always thought it was a little confusing storywise. Either way, finding this to fuel the comforting feeling of nostalgia was a treat hehehe


You should watch Chowder even tho some weird part of me says "it's like the Cartoon version of It's Always Sunny In Philidalphia where you have to just be okay with the the offensive parts being a piece to the larger puzzle of the pure insanity that isn't meant to be taken seriously, but just enjoyed for being absurd uwu". I think that I've been trying to become more okay with that sort of stuff, but I also think it's part of finding my boundaries. Is it silly to think so deeply about a cartoon?? O///O Well... I guess I'm trying to let my silly out, so...
I recently thought of this episode first thing upon waking and got myself into a laughing fit while staying at a friends house and I was trying to be quiet XD but now I have it saved on my phone lmaooo

Some music:

Gonzo-Rella!? OwO ♥

GONZO-RELLA BAYBIEEIEEEEHEE1!!!!!!!!
ily Gonzo my baby whatever :'3 twinsie angel kin darling lmaooooo yaaaaaaaa



-Merky ♥