I'm gonna lose it lol

The good news is that the emotional distress is causing me to not be able to think at all and now I've done a lot of work on the website; I feel like that guy from Parks and Rec...


I fear what my stronger self looks like. What will I have to become and what should I let myself become? I've been trying my best to think about my values. I'm growing into something, weaving myself into something new. I feel so confused about how to live in the world tbh. I guess that's part of the process, but a scary one. I am starting to feel more tangible, but I wonder how that will change things for me. I want to become something I'm proud of.

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well, anyways....

SWEENEY TODD DRAG THEATER:

I love my brother so much. He's someone that anchors me here. Growing up, Sweeney Todd became a bit for us. It was our Rocky Horror before we even knew what that was lol. I mean to say, we would watch the movie and create dialogue or gestures for ourselves to perform back to the screen. When we got older, we were able to see live performances and still giggle when our cues come up.

That being said...I was able to travel to Indy for a Sweeney Todd drag musical parody ♥
It was truly wonderful and such a fun crowd too! We were allowed to yell a lil bit, so my heart was definitely so happy with the experience UwU


You know I had to dress Sweeney style ~ XD
You can check out my Sweeney Todd scrapbook page for more pictures and some videos of the performance ♥

DID awareness:

March 5th was DID awareness day and I'm late, but I wanted to add a cool post I found on tumblr that explained things in a way that I thought made sense~

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IT'S ACTUALLY APRIL NOW FUCK:

Yeah... my friend Toni had a show in town!!! but I lost the photos I took on my old phone ahahaha....
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*BTW Clown time was cancelled but here's the last pic I took of the Koalas*

I might take a picture in my clown outfit later too, because I made some cool updates to the ol clowngown OwO

Phineas and Ferb:

I'm not that good at being a fan of things, but I'm really looking forward to getting to see more Phineas and Ferb in June
It's such a happy show and super silly so I can feel ok watching it no matter what headspace I find myself in. Parts of me have really grown to love the characters in general and that's why we eat up all the silly scenarios people create for them on Tumblr XD Overall, I think it's something I'd like to attempt to make a virtual shrine for :3
I love animation and it's so nice to see how excited all the staff has seemed to be about the revival. Here's a video with some behind the scenes info about the first 4 seasons!~

I also bought myself merch which was a real treat ^w^

Cinema Center & cats:

When I'm in Fort Wayne for work, I like to visit new places if I can. I really do miss the city after being away for too long ^^;;

I used to go to the theater just for the popcorn, but now I like the movies too lol
I went once and then got invited to go back again later that week so it was nice to visit twice~ hehehe >X3 I saw this movie..

On Becoming a Guinea Fowl:

Very heavy topics, but beautifully told. I cried most of the time and even in the parking lot ahaha ye... I do it for the art lol

I also went to the community event for
Hawkins Family Farm: A More Than Corn Story

It was very nice to learn more about the community in that way and learn more about farming and what goes into it all ♥ It makes me so grateful for any food that I'm able to have to sustain myself, but especially for times when I've been able to try locally grown foods :3
And here's some cat pics from pet sitting eheheh yeyy

That's all for nowwww~

Byee ♥