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I've been writing poetry again, lately. My brain has been thinking in poetry again too. My brain has been doing things I don't understand. I don't understand but I also do. I think back in time, and I barely know me.
I'm proud of myself. I wished and tried so hard to be something that makes sense, but now I guess I can let myself be called crazy. I think I can be a good kind of crazy. I think I can be loved as much as I love you too. I love you all so much too, I know you see it. I love that love and I want to be it. More more more more more~

گر چه من خود ز عدم دلخوش و خندان زادم عشق آموخت مرا شکل دگر خندیدن
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I was already born with a good sense of humor
But love has taught me to laugh in a different way
Now, like dawn eager to embrace darkness, I laugh
Like a shell about to reveal its pearl, if you break me,
I laugh

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30th birthday Ratatoullie, btw:

It all feels like so much at once. I hope I can convey it someday. I hope you can see and feel hopeful too. It hurts so much and I wish it didn't have to. It's worth it and I haven't even made it through.



-Merky ♥

This past weekend was busy in a way that I honestly can't even talk about lol Very good for my self development tho.. is ok :'3
I'm trying to rest but I definitely want to distract myself with projects right now... Not a totally bad idea, but I've had the tendency to go overboard in the past. Slow and steady, right TwT ?? I have a few projects that it would actually be responsible of me to work on and everything lol
I also did have a lot of fun amidst all the busyness too! I'm trying to focus on that .///. !

I went to a bar in a nearby city and saw a local drag show and it made me remember how much I love those vibes!! So fun and full of all sorts of energy~ There were times when I looked around and felt like I was some sexy lady from the 20s in a smokey room full of people sitting around drinking and just enjoying watching people dance around with cute outfits and tassels and whatnot lol

I will post the rest of the pictures in the Scrapbook, but here's my fav:

...I guess I was a sexy lady in the 20s in a smokey room with people sitting around drinking and watching people dance in cute outfits O__o
...Anyways..!!!

I'm planning to finally finish my commission/contact page next, as far as website stuff goes~ I'm really trying to be more serious about business type stuff... >n> but it's not the easiest task because I hate the way everything works lol

Oohhh and one more thing... My birthday is next month and I'm also trying really hard to make sure my place is in somewhat order to have guests ^w^ ! I have a copy of the Ratatousical (Ratatouille Musical) and the potential of tofu chili brewing nyehehe so I'm excited. I think some people have tried to make me feel bad for getting old and maybe they are just jokin, but I don't mind either way because I love birthdays and being able to age lol so I'm gonna keep that in my head to look forward to !!
I really wanna post some house tour pics on here eventually too, but that's gotta be lower on my list for now ^^;;

My brain is currently still a bit too scattered to be able to organize a good list of media, but... here's what I'm listening to riiiight now OwO lolol



I'll leave you with that until next time! ;3

-Merky ♥