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Aaaaa ok, today went pretty well :3
They already talked to me about coming back to perform again sometime soon, so I'm happy.
Tbh I've been dealing with a lot of family bs and different relationships in my life either ending or transforming, so I sometimes get anxious about being able to get into performing-merky-mode O///O

here's a teeny tiny vid someone took

Something with the sound system cables were not working, but I don't think it really mattered lol. Every time I do anything in a professional setting, I'm reminded that I need to get out of my own anxious perfectionist head lol
Like...hmm....Maybe having fun and wanting other people to be happy and have fun too is enough even if things aren't perfect 100%.. ^^;;

Besides music stuff, I've been having a lot of fun on Neocities and I'm gonna try to get back into learning more coding now that I'm back down to just some crochet projects. I've been feeling happy finding so many little pockets of the world that I didn't know how to reach before and it reminds me how much I love discovering all the unique things people create.

I'm gonna try to get my scrapbook page open soon so I can put media stuff there, but for now, I'm gonna keep dumping it here! XP

EVERTHING IS GOING TO BE OK:

(I could make a shrine to this I s2g...)
Interactive digital zine/"game" that literally broke my heart open and inspired me to make more art
https://alienmelon.itch.io/everything-is-going-to-be-ok

Owl Jolson:

So I kept randomly thinking about this cartoon from when I was a kid about a singing Owl..

when I looked it up, I found some other related videos of interest XP


Fun remix!! It's the Bieber part for me... lmaooo


The best music is the kind that makes you say "They sampled whaaat? wait ...yes u.u "


omfg ♥.♥!! I love to singa :'O lolol This tutorial is so funny too, I love it

Music:

(I'm cryingfkjgnsjdfn this one is my fav on this list. I adore her voice and also the lyrics are me and it rips me to shredssss)

>__> I don't really have anything to say about the rest, they are just fun to me lol

I slept all day after the excitement of the morning, so now I'm up late posting too much..hmm...
TTYL!! XD

-Merky ♥

Soo...
I wish I could more easily explain how I've been feeling lately. I've mentioned the word "molting" quite a few times to my friends, but I can't find anything more human-sounding (I notice I have that problem more often than I'd like lol)

I'm happy anyways, even if it's something weird happening.
I know I have the sort of brain that likes to become new, but I suppose it just only ever happened by necessity or accident before recently. Sometimes I want to be able to explain this better, because then I think a lot more people might realize that they aren’t crazy just because people make them feel that way. I’m lucky that there was a horribly stubborn and obnoxious Merky within me that wouldn’t shut up no matter what and occasionally tried to beat me up for ignoring her lmaoo XD

Today, I’m taking a well deserved break after working hard on rehearsals and cleaning all day yesterday UwU
My favorite rest activities lately are probably…

♥Watching random shows and short films

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♥Neocities/trying to code lol

♥Making Bia

(pictured with me in My Orb above)

chase the red dot while I listen to music

..And since I mentioned it, ;3
Here’s some media I like recently~

Music:

Adding this last minute at 10pm now because I just found them and I'm in love. Goals.

Videos:

CW for claymation gore/violence and sensitive topics on this last one:

I'm really enjoying typing my thoughts out into the vastness of the internet galaxy again, but that's all for now!

-Merky ♥